First of all, apologies for my last post. It was most certainly real and raw… but it was reflecting a headspace I’m not often in.

When I’m on these hormones it reminds of that old Zoloft commercial with the face that’s walking around, being followed by a dark and rainy cloud filled with doom and gloom.

Happily, once they kicked up my estrogen, my endo lining measured a 7, and I was able to start progesterone oil shots and stay somewhat on track for transfer.

After an early morning blood test, I learned this morning that my hormones are doing great and we are ready to have our microscopic embryo implanted on Tuesday!

The reality is, I’m more swollen and bloated from these drugs than I’d ever imagined. 7-days a week workouts and eating right makes me feel like a hamster running it it’s wheel… I can’t combat the gain hormones creating. Its uncomfortable, and definitely taking its toll on me, mentally. Just trying to go back to that headspace that says, “You’re beautiful regardless of what the scale says, keep taking care of yourself, you’re doing this for a much higher purpose.” If the hormones are doing this to help me create the healthiest womb… so be it. I know how to rock the curves!

Hoping the other side effect subsides soon. Insomnia that triggers panic in the middle of the night… no fun. This girl needs her beauty rest!

I may post again on transfer day, but then you won’t hear from me for 51 days… ish. That’s when it’s safe to report if it’s taken… or what my plans are if it has not.

In the meantime, I’m meditating, praying, and celebrating every moment life throws my way. Overjoyed to have spent the morning watching a young man enter his Jewish adulthood and ascend the Torah as a Bar Mitzvah, tutored by my baby sister (which also made me very proud!). These are the moments that remind me everything has a purpose, every moment counts, and I’m right where I’m supposed to be.

This journey may be a roller coaster, but I am grateful to be on the ride.

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